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Post by giovanni james martenetti VI on Jul 30, 2008 9:58:00 GMT -5
gianni had just been starting to push his distracting thoughts from his mind, and only focus on lauren when things began to die down. he was a bit confused, had he done something wrong? that was now what flooded his head, that he had done something wrong. which made him feel terrible. gianni waited as lauren stopped and began tp speak. he was a tad confused with her words,... at first. what are you,.... oh gianni had begun to question what she had meant but then it hit him what she had meant. gainni ran his hands over his facce and slid out from underneath lauren. he sat against the edge of his bed, his hands resting a light grip upon it. a soft sigh escaped as he thought over the one thought that had never once crossed his mind that entire time. the fact that his parents had wanted him to wait,.... and that he had almost disrespected them,... disrespected the lord,.. and the list could just continue to go on and on really of people he had nearly disrespected. gianni had just got so caught up into the moment, he hadn't even thought of his parents wishes. gianni set his face into his hands as he sat on the side of his bed, all those thoughts now rushing through his head. he had thought ovver every other thing, but not his parents wishes. gianni sighed again and stood up and walked over to thelarge window that over looked his back yard, mainly the large rose garden. gianni stood with one arm leaning against the glass, his eyes lock stare. he stood motionless as the attention of what he had nearly done continued to sink in deeper and deeper. he had been the only one of his cousins who went with their parents wishes, the only one. and that had brought him so much respect with the elders of the family, and he had nearly thrown it all a way. now this thought would not perish from gianni's mind for quite a while. one would probably find him mumbling to himself quite often. it was actuall surprisng that he wasn't now doing that. he was in rather deep thought, but it looked as though it wasn't just deep enough to get his usual mumbling starting. though it would soon prgress to that. everything was progressive, every action, every though, it was progressive. it started with something simple, and grew sometimes swiftly into something a lot larger. just like that evening had. the sun was now just barely peeking over the horizon, and within a few minutes it was completely gone. the room was dark, and quiet. but gianni hadn't even taken notice to this. his mind was off somewhere else now.
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Post by lauren charlotte lexington on Jul 31, 2008 15:23:18 GMT -5
[/font][/i][/url] what are you,.... oh. at least he understood what she ment. lauren could hear the realization in his voice as he slowly procouced the 'oh'. lauren pushed her lips togther as his hand gently touched her face. she responded by sliding her hand ontop of his. he rolled out from underneath her. lauren moaned as she fell onto her back. she knew she souldn't have said anything. now he was upset, and it was her fault. but, mabye she had done the right thing by reminding him. she would never want him to do something that he knew was against his parents wishes. it would have been wrong. lauren coverd her eyes with her hands.
lauren felt as gianni got off the bed. she put her hands back by her sides, and rolled over. she was now facing him. she watched his face. it was an expression lauren had never seen on gianni's face before. it was almost, a cringe. it was like he just stopped himself from commiting a murder. that thought almost made lauren laugh. the fact that it was okay for him to be in the mob, but not okay for him to have sex was funny to lauren. but she would stand by whatever he decided. lauren sighed, still feeling like she had done something wrong.
lauren slid to the end of gianni's bed where he had just sat. she got up, and walked over to gianni who was leaning against the window. she saunterd over to him slowly. once she reached him, she cautiously rapped her arms around his waist. she rested her chin on his shoulder. eventhough gianni wasn't redicuously tall, she still had to stand on her toes to be able to rest her chin there. lauren breathed slowly, trying to help him slow his breathing down to her pace. she turned her head to the side of his neck, and planted a gentel kiss there. she didn't really know what to say, so she didn't speak. she just stood there, her body pressed against his.
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Post by giovanni james martenetti VI on Aug 1, 2008 12:37:35 GMT -5
the mumbling soon began,... he was now in a place where he couldn't be disturbed. his mind was lost too deeply in thought. gianni took a slow heavy breath as the mumbling continued. none of the words could be made out, though they weren't really words that he was producing just sounds for the most part. there weer actual words, just they were spoken so swiftly, so quietly,... that they all strung together. some in english, and some in italian. no one could ever understand him when he began this. and he was hard to gain the attention of like wise. gianni hadn't even noticed lauern's movement,... her touch, her kiss. he was entirely lost in his thoughts. her touch did eventually register in his head, it just took quite a rather long time for it. gianni shook his head clearing his thoughts. he turned his head and looked down onto lauren, he didn't have anything to say to her relly right now. gianni's eyes flickered back out the window, and his head followed the motion. he kkept his eyes locked on the glass,... he took another heavy breath as his thoughts began to recollect. the soft eyes darted to the ground, and he he sighed. gianni then turned, and broke lauren's hold around him. he put his hands into his front pockets, and jept his eyes on the floor. he was thinking about asking her to leave,.. but that would simply be just too rude of him. he'd find time to think everything over evetually. and he left that thought at that. but the thought kept pushing back into his mind. the thought adn silence was becoming irritating. gianni stepped past lauren and went and sat back down on his bed. he rested his elbows crossed on his knees and his eyes stuck to the floor. the night was just filled with too many twists and turns for gianni to collect. things started one way and ended another. that was how the entire evening had been,... and he wasn't sure with how thrilled he was with that anymore. he was still a guy, so yes a part of him was a bit irritated right now. but it was such a small part,.. but the thought of what hector was going to say to him made the small part grow a bit. gianni ran his hands threw his hair and then thre himself back on his bed. putting his hands over his face and taking yet another heavy breath.
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Post by lauren charlotte lexington on Aug 1, 2008 16:22:13 GMT -5
[/font][/i][/url] laurens ears were filled with the soft muffled noise of gianni mummbeling to himself. she couldn't make out a word he said, so she stopped trying. they stood togther, motionless. lauren let out a sigh against gainni's ear. what a disaster! her eyes filled with tears, but she let none fall down her face. that would have been too embarassing. it had been such an overwhelming night. so much had happned. first, lauren meeting his entire family. second, gianni announcing she was his girlfriend. third, their new physical relationship was formed. it was all so much to take in.
lauren felt gianni move, and he was soon facing her. there eyes met for a moment, then he swiftly looked away. lauren's eyes fell to her feet. she kept a tight grip around his lower waist. lauren was frozen, speechless, thoughtless. her stair moved back up gianni until they reached his face. his expression was unreadable. it was, broken. lauren knew this was her fault. she had to take full responsibility for gianni's suffering. she wished she could go back in time, and suggest something else to do. that would have made life a heck of a lot easyer.
neather of them moved for a long moment. then gianni broke lauren's grip around his waist and moved back to the bed. lauren just stood there, her arms hanging limp by her sides. her eyes staring at nothing. it was like someone had put a rode block on the evening. and that person was lauren. lo opened her mouth to speak, but her lips were quivering too much to actually get anything out. she felt a tear sliding down her cheek. she quickly whiped it away, hopefully before gianni noticed. she couldn't move for a while. she heard gianni fall back on his bed.
lauren knew she had to leave. she couldn't be there anymore. too much had happned. lauren walked quickly. she almost ran through the room. she headed for the basement where she had left her purse. she got to the staircase and paused for a moment. she leaned agaist the wall, and slowly slid down until she was sitting. it was like she suddnely had led in her shoes. she could move no more.
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Post by giovanni james martenetti VI on Aug 1, 2008 16:39:14 GMT -5
gianni heard lauren leave the room. he sat himself up, he sighed seeing as she had almost ran. he rubbed his hands over his face yet again adn then picked himself up off the bed. gianni slolwy made his way down stairs, he looked about seeing if she was still there or if she was long gone already. gianni heard something from the basement and walked to the stair well. he flicked on a light and saw lauren against the wall.yes he felt like a major and complete jerk right now. he had become selfish,.. adn it wasn't right of him to do. gianni attempted to say something, but no words came. and gianni always knew exactly what to say. he took a heavy sigh and stepped down the stairs. he sat himself down on the stair that sat above where lauren had ended up. gianni continued to fight for words but still nothing. he bent his head over and shook his head. utterly disappointed in himself right now. he picked his head back up and scooted down a step. he rested an arm on the step above, and out stretched one of his legs onto the steps below. he rested his soft eyes onto lauren. "lauren,.. i'm sorry. i,.. i should of been thinking,... i was being selfish,.. i'm sorry" gianni felt that all he could really do right now was apologize for his stupidity. how he had been acting was not who he was. he was acting like the typical jerk that was at school. the guys he hated most. gianni lightly lifted up lauren's chin and gave a soft smile. "i love you, and i am sorry" gianni meant his apology, and he meant that he lvoed her too. though these were the only words he could come up with. and even though were simple, he meant them. he was beyond angry with himself right now. lauren hadn't deserved his little attitude problem. she hadn't deserved it at all. and now he could tell he had hurt her with the way he had reacted. and that was something he never wanted to do to her. he ahd done everything he ahd promised never to do. he acted like a selfish jerk,.. he hurt lauren. he felt like a complete and total ass as he awaited lauren to say something. and he only expected something not so good or pleasent. he wasn't going to expect her to forgive him. but he knew he had to apologize, adn he had wanted to also. he wasn't the guy who just apologized and had no meaning to it. he always meant his apologies. always,...
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Post by lauren charlotte lexington on Aug 2, 2008 9:55:52 GMT -5
[/font][/i][/url] lauren glanced around the pitcth black staircase. she was sitting in total darkness. suddenly, the light flicked on. lauren turned her head away from the doorway as her eyes began to adjust to the light. she hadn't been sitting in darkness for that long, but the shock of the bright light still hurt her eyes. she closed them for a second as she heard gianni move down the stairs. she turned her head to face the wall infront of her. he kept his distance. that was probaby the wise decision.
lauren was hurt, there was no doubt about that. not because he didn't want to go any further, but because of how he just blocked her out when he got upset. it remided her of when her parents faught. her father would always run off to a bar with his buddies, and leave her mother alone at the house. lauren quickly shook the image of her mother sitting alone in at the kitchen table, crying out of her head. it was too much to think about. lauren still had a few tears left over, sitting in her eyes, waiting to fall.
lauren.. i'm sorry. i.. i should of been thinking... i was being selfish.. i'm sorry. lauren looked up at gianni as he spoke. not at his face, she couldn't do that, she kept her stair on his keens. they were a safe place to look. for some reason, his apology didn't seem one hundred percent sencer to lauren. she wasn't really even looking for an apology. she just wanted to know that he would be able to talk to her next time he was upset. lauren felt gianni's hand under her chin. he lifted her head so that their eyes met. lauren's were welling with tears, and gianni's seemed to be full of remorse. i love you, and i am sorry.
an akaward smile crossed lauren's features as the tears began to stream down her face. she couldn't help it this time. now that apology felt totally completly sencer. lauren kept his gaze as she slowly rapped her hands around the back of his neck, and moved his face just a little closer to hers. apology, accepted. lauren softly, almost in a whisper. she gently bit her lip, nervous about what she was about to say. i just really...need to know, that next time you get upset, you're not going to shut me out like that. because thats what really hurt. she said in total honesty.
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Post by giovanni james martenetti VI on Aug 2, 2008 22:51:52 GMT -5
gianni hadn't even noticed that he had shut lauren out. he had only done what he was use to doing. going off and yelling at himself, trying to figure out what on earth he had been thinking. most issues he had he wasn't able to share, they weer all about the mob. sure his sister he could go to, but he didn't want to always be dumping stuff on her left and right. it asn't fair to her. gianni brushed away a tear from lauren's face, and left a light hand on her cheek. "i'll promise to try,.. i'm just not use to opening up, and i'm sorry" sorry, sorry, sorry,.. sorry that was all that seemed to be coming out of gianni's mouth. well all he really heard himself to be saying. but what was a guy to really say in a situation like this. gianni lightly pressed his lips to lauren's forehead, and then put his head against hers, keeping his eyes with hers. sure he knew what to say, but he didn't use it against people. most guys said what they knew women wanted to hear. sure gianni knew it was what they ahd indeed wanted to hear, but unlike the other guys he meant what he said. and he always meant it too. "i truly am sorry, and will promise to work on that. you've just got to remember i've never really had anyone to take my problems to,... i've always ever really had myself" gianni wasn't saying this to stick up for himself. or make it look like what he had done wasn't wrong. he just, was well saying it. but it was all true, he wouldn't lie to someone, especially someone he loved. sure he may have hid things, but that was others protection adn well being. not because he wanted to keep things from people or anything, he actually hated bottling everything up. it wasn't healthy. gianni sat back on the opposing wall. he moved his eyes up the stairs and then to the step that he sat on. he brought his eyes up as he began to speak. "you don't have to leave,...." yes this was gianni's way of implying that he didn't want lauern to leave. especially after the little tid bit. it wouldn't be healthy for their new realtionship. and he was afraid of losing lauren now,.. and very much so afraid.
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Post by lauren charlotte lexington on Aug 3, 2008 10:01:36 GMT -5
[/font][/i][/url] gianni's hand caressed lauren's cheek, while whiping away her salty tears. his hand rested gently on her face, his gaze locked on hers as he spoke. i'll promise to try.. i'm just not use to opening up, and i'm sorry. lauren chuckled to herslef. she put her hands on eather side of gianni's face, squishing his cheeks togther a little. lauren smiled as the tears falling down her face began to dry up. i don't expect you to tell me everything. you don't need to. all i want is to know that i didn't do something wrong. i just felt so, helpless. like i couldn't do anything to make you feel better... her words trailed off, her motherly insitncts were taking over her again. all i'm asking, is that you tell me what you need me to do, next time your upset. her voice was calm and she kept a smile on her face.
i truly am sorry, and will promise to work on that. you've just got to remember i've never really had anyone to take my problems to... i've always ever really had myself. lauren nodded as she listend to gianni. she completly understood what he ment. he was a very independant person, never having to rely on anyone to help him with his problems. so, he wouldn't know how to open up to someone. lauren took both hands off gianni's face and found his. she locked their fingers togther. you only have to talk to me about how you're feeling if you want to. i'm not going to force you to open up to me. i will be here if you ever want to, though. she said reassuringly.
lauren watched gianni break their hands apart, and move to the wall across from lauren. she angled her body to face him, her smile fading every so slightly. you don't have to leave.... lauren looked in gianni's eyes. she could see almost desperation in them. her smile grew again. if you want me to stay, i'm here. she said, opening her arms wide.
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Post by giovanni james martenetti VI on Aug 4, 2008 10:27:07 GMT -5
maybe all of the negatives of the evening could acctualy be positives. it was just how one looked at the situation really. sure they had had a bit of a fight, but it had brought them closer by the looks of it. all gianni knew is that he hoped what he had done hadn't ruined everything. he would be even more amd with himself, and quite hurt too. the whole thing with tinsely,... it wasn't real. maybe he had only felt a lust for her like everyone else. or maybe he did truly actually have feelings for her then. but she was just too much for him to handle. gianni removed tinsely from his mind. that was someone he really didn't need to be thinking about. not now, not ever. if he wanted her to? was it not obvious gianni didn't want lauren to leave. he was actually readbale of this for a change. he looked down then back up to lauren, meeting his eyes with hers. he softly smiled and spoke just as softly. "well of course i do,.. but if you don't want to after alll of this,... then i wouldn't blame you" gianni didn't want her to leave at all. sure it may have been a good diea, the feelings still rushing through his body. but he'd have to have will power. he was a guy plain and simple. and no matter how much of a gentlemen he was, guys were still like light switches when it came to intimancy. and that couldn't be helped, it was just a plain and simple fact. and one that really couldn't be ignored. gianni looked up the stair case to celeste who was holding gianni's cell phone with a rather freaked out look on her face. gianni shot up and moved quickly up the stairs and took the phone. he shooed celeste away, this was nothing she needed to worry about yet. gianni swiftly moved away from the door and into a room that sat across the hall. gianni paced about in front of a large desk speaking swift itailian, doing his best to keep his voice down. though he knew it would be difficult to do. he wasn't too thrilled with the things he was hearing. gianni yelled once then threw the phone and went to sit on a couch. he put his hands over his face. he then realized he had just got up and left lauren in the stairwell. great, another thing he did wrong. he took a deep breth trying to calm himself down.
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Post by lauren charlotte lexington on Aug 4, 2008 12:09:22 GMT -5
[/font][/i][/url] lauren smiled a sweet, yet carful smile. she crawled over to gianni's side. she put one of his arms around her shoulders and rested her head on his shoulder. lauren snuggled close to his body. she lifted her head to his ear, and was about to reply to his comment when his attention was turned to his sister at the top of the staircase. celeste was waving gianni's cell phone in the air with an annoyed look on her face. gianni moved quickly from lauren's side and ran up the staircase to meet his sister. lauren sighed as she watched him leave her.
lauren heard him mummbeling in italian on the phone. she couldn't make out a word he was saying. first, because he was speaking very quietly, second becase he was speaking in italian. lauren got up from the stair she had been resting on, and slowly walked up to gianni's front room. she leaned agaisnt the wall as he paced back and forth. he didn't notice her, he was to busy with the phone call. her eyes followed his anxious body, walking back and forth, back and forth. then he changed direction and walked into the living room. lauren waited for a moment, then followed him in.
lauren sat down beside gianni on the couch and was seilent. she wasn't upset, but he odviously was. she rested her hand on his back and rubbed it sympatheticly. whats wrong? she asked in a whisper. he didn't have to respond to her, she wouldn't make him. he was upset, and if he needed her to go, she would. it was up to him though. she didn't want to leave, however. she never did. lauren was happy being with gianni, weather it was to make him feel better, or just to be with him.
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Post by giovanni james martenetti VI on Aug 4, 2008 12:30:48 GMT -5
gianni was annoyed that he had gotten the phone call. but only a few people ahd the number to the cell phone celeste had answered. and he was quite angered that she had answered it too. but he'd discuss that with her at another time. that cell phone wasn't safe for her to answer, he had no idea who'd be calling him. and what their means were. if they were people that would seek out to hurt anyone gianni really cared about or not. gianni had gotten lucky with this call being from one of his cousins. so celeste was safe, but she might not get as lucky next time. that was the problem with gianni's life, what he did put those he cared most about in danger. gianni didn't want to scare lauren, so he figured he shouldn't tell her for now. give it some time. things were already a bit uneasy. gianni looked to the floor and then up to lauren. "things, just aren't so good right now,.. maybe you should stay here for awhile to be safe,.. and i don't mean to scare you with that if it does,.. its just,.. things,..." gianni didn't know how to explain what was going on without explaining what was going on. gianni quickly kissed lauren and then finished his words. "you're just going to have to trust me on this one" gianni hoped that lauren would just trust him and have faith in him. things were going to get hectic in gianni's life for a bit, and he'd rather have her somewhere where he'd know she was safe. adn he didn't see her being in an apartment by herself to be safe at any level. gianni kissed lauren again, and kept his lips close to hers. he thought, and then sat back against the couch again. he had told himself he needed to be more aware of the things he was doing. everything in life was progressive, and even though he didn't mind that,.. he knew he shouldn't. gianni had a second urge to go out to a club and get high or something, or wasted. ya, gianni ahd a pretty bad drug problem. though he hadn't had anything in a few weeks, but with all this stress he was having difficulties. and with all the stress from the evening continuing to pile up, it was getting more difficult. and then there was the fact that he had almost had sex, and being a guy with an almost doesn't leave one quite so well. gianni was torn between two urges that he had to say no to. he wasn't going to get high with lauren around, there was no way that was happening. and then sex,.. it was out of the picture. gianni ran his hands over his face. he was silent on the outside, but screaming on the inside with frustration. everything ahd been going to right, and then after that it had begun to go all down hill. everything with his family had gone completely fine. and it was when they left that things took a turn for the worse. it was like the lord was screwing with his mind right now. well more satan taunting him,.. and it was so hard to say no to those sins he was being taunted with. he was a guy, and he had a drug and alcohol problem. though he never got scary when he drank or anyhing, he just tended to drink a lot. maybe it would of been better for gianni physically if lauren left, but emotionally no. and it really wasn't safe for her, as scary as that sounded. but things would get better shortly, when everything was taken care of. gianni wouldn't be no where near as stressed out, which was a good thing for both him and lauren. only when he was stressed did he want drugs, only then. so his addiction wasn't really even that bad. but being addicted in the first place wasn't good. gianii removed his hands from his eyes and rested them softly on lauren. though his thoughts were heavy. the silenece was becoming a bit annoying, but gianni didn't really know what to say. apologize for the hundreth time? now was that getting old. his mind was still resting on the drugs and sex,.. he was slipping right now. gianni stood up and walked over to a silver cart and poured himself a shot of straight vodka. maybe that would help. gianni drank it, then set the glass down. he set a hand on the table next to the drink cart. his eyes locked on the book shelf. he turned and softly smiled at lauren, his eyes moving from her to the floor.
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Post by lauren charlotte lexington on Aug 4, 2008 19:45:30 GMT -5
[/font][/i][/url] lauren crossed her legs and leaned back in the couch. she took her hand from gianni's back and rested it on his cheek. her eyes were warm, but curious. whatever was bothering him was really bothering him. this wasn't good. lauren sighed. it was scelient for a few moments. that was never a good sign. gianni finally opened his mouth to speak. things, just aren't so good right now.. maybe you should stay here for awhile to be safe.. and i don't mean to scare you with that if it does.. its just.. things... lauren was shocked. her mouth hung open, her eyes on gianni. her heart began to race as she was scared for her life now. what was he talking about? was someone after her now? the only danger she had ever thought of with this mob thing was for gianni. she never imagined that she would be in danger now too. her breathing began to pick up too.
then lauren felt gianni's lips mold to hers again. it was a comforting feeling. but when he pulled away, the feeling of panic returned. this was not a good thing. lauren couldn't speak. her eyes moved around the room like she was looking for something. i..i.. she studderd. you're just going to have to trust me on this one. lauren took a long deep breath. she trusted gianni, she had to. lauren returned her eyes to gianni's. i trust you. she replied finally in a shakey voice. she was surprised she got that much out. her heart was still racing, but her breathing had returned to normal. this was all so, insane. but she would have to act like everything was fine. because, it was..right? lauren did trust gianni. but did she trust him with her life? did it really come to that? lauren shook the thought out of her head. her eyes fell to her feet.
lauren looked up just as gianni moved in for another kiss. their lips molded togther like they were made to fit togther. like two peices of a puzzel. lauren returned her hand to gianni's face. she was about to lean forward to intensify the kiss, when gianni broke their lips apart. she kept her eyes closed and took her hand off his face. her eyes opened, but she didn't look at gianni. she couldn't. her eyes looked around the celing. studing every corner. when she looked back down gianni had moved. he was standing by the drink cart at the back of the room. of course, in a time of stress, gianni had to drink. he looked at lauren, meeting her gaze. she looked away and her eyes fell to her feet again.
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Post by giovanni james martenetti VI on Aug 5, 2008 10:24:34 GMT -5
gianni felt terrible right nw, he knew he had frightened lauren. but, what was he supposed to do? not know what was going on in his mob life and one day find out something terrible happened? he'd kill himself if that ever happened. gianni was the guy that'd take a bullet to the chest for anyone he cared about. it was just in his nature. gianni took note that lauren was looking everywhere in the room but at him. he set the shot glass back onto the cart and stepped back over to the couch. he took a set next to lauren. he sat close, and on the edge of the couch. "i,... i know this is scary, but i just don't know what is going on right now. we had a family memeber who never was actually with us, and i don't know what he'd do.... i just want to make sure that i know you're safe,.... gianni was doing his best to be a good boyfriend, seeing as he had started out as a pretty shitty one so far. all he could think of to do with everything going on right now was do his best to protect lauren. it was just a natural instinct. guys were protectors and fixers. they just naturally did these things and left it at that. gianni scooted back on the couch and pulled lauren up onto his lap, keeping his arms tight about her. he was just a frightened as she was. he just wasn't one to show his fear, he couldn't. there were many times he could of very well lost his life if he had shown his fear. and that was why gianni always had seemed so cool and collected, but lately he was having difficulties with that. but he couldn't figure that out. maybe becasue he had opened up?... it would be a very good possiblity so he couldn't really side against it. "as long as i am around, nothing will happen to you,.. i promise" gianni then gingerly kissed lauren's forehead. sure he hadn't wanted to stop there, but he knew he needed to. gianni's mind drifted in and out of thoughts as to what had happened upstairs only minutes ago, and what had almost happened too. he knew he'd be thinking that one over for quite awhile. and the next time he saw hector or heard from him. gianni didn't even want to think about that right now.
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Post by lauren charlotte lexington on Aug 5, 2008 12:16:30 GMT -5
[/font][/i][/url] lauren rested her head on the back of the couch and closed her eyes. it had been a long day, and she was exausted. she knew she couldn't sleep now thought. she was too scared to. lauren felt gianni sit back down on the couch beside her. she opened her eyes and looked at him as he spoke. i,... i know this is scary, but i just don't know what is going on right now. we had a family memeber who never was actually with us, and i don't know what he'd do.... i just want to make sure that i know you're safe,.... lauren sighed. this was all so new, and so frightning. she couldn't respond. there was too much going through her mind to be able to work something out to say.
suddnely, lauren felt gianni's arms around her and she was lifted on to his lap. she didn't object to this. she needed some comforting. she rested her head against his chest, and looked up at him, her eyes filled with worry. as long as i am around, nothing will happen to you,.. i promise. lauren smiled a little. she couldn't help it. he was so sweet, and such a prince charming. i trust you. she whisperd. lauren kept her eyes on gianni. she lifted her head a little and their lips met.
ooc; REALLY bad. sorry!
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Post by giovanni james martenetti VI on Aug 5, 2008 12:38:34 GMT -5
gianni knew things could takea turn for the worse with his family quicker then one could blink. and that was what worried him so terribly. all he could think to do was just comfort lauren, reassure her over and over again that she'd be okay, that'd everything be okay. even if he didn't know this one hundred percent. he'd make sure that she'd be okay, he couldn't control if everything would be okay though. only control what you can control, leave everything else in the hands of the lrod. that was what his grandmother had always told him growing up. gianni felt his chesy tighten up as lauren brought her liips to his. it was a good, and bad feeling. gianni was so torn and confused right now. but he wasn't going to object to the kiss. he kissed her back, there was a hint of lust in the kiss. but he couldn't help it right now. he was doing everything he could to keep himself from going and getting high. that was the last thing he wanted to do. giani slowly broke his lips from aluren's and spoke softly. "well, then as long as you trust me then things should be okay" if she didn't trust him, then that would mean she didn't have faith in him. and that wouldn't be a help to gianni what so ever. gianni smiled and ran his hand through the back of launre's hair. he then lightly, sweetly, slolwy,.. and sensually kissed her again. why couldn't he have just gone off and read a book or something? he knew this wasn;t going to, nor could it lead anywhere. but yet gianni let it continue, he was beyond stressed right now. and he couldn't think straight. he already had aquite a short attention span, and when he was stressed the attention span got shorter and shorter. and the when he was stressed an unable to go get drugs, his sometimes got to a point where he just really wasn't himself. he did his best to focus on how he needed to carry himself out. how he needed to pay close attention to his actions. this was the one thought that danced in his head. he didn't allow any other thoughts in.
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