{ all the wrong reasons ;;

[jensen marie westley]

... a chance to know you

jensen westley

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[jensen marie westley]

random transcript during a boring class...

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the world keeps running past me
and i wish i could keep up
but something keeps holding me back
and every decision i need to face
takes a million years to come to an end

and i’m stuck worrying
i’m busy not wanting to make another mistake
always careful of creating another regret

i tiptoe around this world
while they keep running around me
if only i could leave the past behind me
begin to trust in myself

but in truth i’m still living in my history
i haven’t moved fast enough to escape it
every day when i’m alone
i worry i’ll slip into my old ways
forgetting reality made things so much easier

i need someone to show me all this
but honestly who would willingly
want to take all this on

and yet it seems like someone does want me
but even from him i’ve hidden away
he wouldn’t want me if he knew
so i spent the rest of my time worrying
worrying about what will happen if he finds out

and i know he can’t fix me
i know that only i can
i’ve got to stop being scared
but you know what?
sometimes i don’t want to
because i want to need him
needing him makes me feel better
but then... what happens if he gets sick of being needed

i wish my world was simple
i wish i really could just sit back
and watch it all go by
just like i think i do
but i’m not sitting back watching
i’m being swept along
and i’m scared
really scared

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